So... this post will be all over the place. Where I vent my frustrations at my progress, my current shape etc.
Returning from vacation last week I weighed exactly the same as I did when I left. I chalked it up to the increased activity levels and availability of fresh foods, not to mention cutting out that weekly + trip through the drive through. Ryan had been making some health changes here at home as well and together we have been focusing our efforts on eating more veggies, more fruits, fewer red meats, and just healthier overall. So why is it that this week I weigh over a lb MORE? I have hit a bit of a plateau around my current weight, which wasn't completely unexpected but it is a little disappointing.
My vent for the day...if you have heard this story feel free to skim. When I got pregnant the first time I was a skinny minnie. I put on 40 lbs during pregnancy and gained an additional 10 after the birth. By 3 months postpartum I was 50 lbs up from my original weight. It took over a year to drop 30 of those lbs to get down to the between pregnancies weight. Contrast this to my most recent pregnancy. I gained 30, left the hospital 15 lbs lighter and I'm down those last 15 right back to that between weight. So why don't the clothes fit? The clothes I bought that first year after having #1? I weighed more that first year than I do now, I am eating better now, so why is dressing myself every morning an exercise in frustration? Clothes squeeze and bunch, cling where they shouldn't and show off more than I intend. Even the clothes I bought on vacation were the "lesser evil" so to speak. Am I stuck here until I'm done nursing? Will it take a breast reduction to let me fit back into the appropriate clothing size, will I always have to walk the line between mumu and porn queen? I am too stubborn to buy a completely new wardrobe and give away all the clothes I still like but just can't wear. Ahh ok... vent over.
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So, now you're a mama. And here's the mama truth: no matter what you weigh, you will never be the same shape as you were pre-pregnancy.
The end.
Once you come to that conclusion, you can get to know your new body - your new mama shape - and learn to love it and hug it and dress it appropriately. You may or may not decide to call it "George;" that's your decision.
But really, the shape is different from the weight. No matter what I weigh, my hips and chest (not my bust, but my actual ribcage) are physically not the same as they were in 2001 and 2004 - the years in which I gave birth. It's the permanent mark of my maternity.
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